Opening up....

The past few days i been thinking...well im always thinking of course but i supposed the past few days i been thinking nd noticing i was thinking...does that make any sense? either way...i am a muslim...we aren't allowed to listen to music yet i do...i know what the punishment is yet i still do it. there are a lot of things we shouldnt b doing but we do anything. the temptations are just unbearable. its embarassing to admit how weak i am to these...even to myself. but i have been trying to change. i kno it will take a while nd not everyone will notice it...but im not doing it for the people...am i? or for myself?