not caring..just writing..my feelings

I dont expect anyone to reply to these posts or to get any help..i like writing..and thats how i solve my problems..by writing them out...

so today's problem is...or the problem i've had for a while now is...

i feel empty, unwanted, not cared for..i feel like people would care let alone NOTICE if i DIE...i always say how i wished i was loved and i miss a whole bunch of things and usually that gets me nowhere...i get called desperate... :(

am i?